weired... i mean...... *sigh*

while I'm righting this Post I'm... i dunno happy? joyful... i don't know but its a good feeling i don't get happy allot although i may look like it sometimes I'm just.... destroyed inside i cant focus on school or anything every one in my class hates me.... but this is the 1st time in about 4 months that I'm happy for you know reel not a worry and I'm looking forward to the future Ive just got to keep this feeling for longer its like i believe like life is worth it.... what is it? i don't know but... if you don't under stand i don't either i just.... suddenly care about stuff! is so weird...

im going to start to plan for the future and doing things like that and im gonaa be different and ive started already ive used speel checked this poast for once! im gona try and be less shy.....try to and talk more and argh ill just end it here

so with that i click the mouse

people are difrent then you may think....

you see some people that look like they have it all....they dont peole look hapy and are ...torcherd retards that want to be samrt nerds that cant be driffrent popular people that wish they where dead! ive made my point.

ok to start of people i know that are diffrent on the inside

since i dont care about 1/2 these people i wont bother fakeing names yea this is a un fake post

justen: the moast popular person in my old school hes life outside of school was a liveing hell!

Ryder: he was a quiet guy that was my best friend till grade6 hes a simple guy he has potentiol but he dosent realy show it...

Anthony: this guy boy where to get started..... 1st up hes the most antisocal person ever.... yet he has alot to say. he was my friend for a long time but when we boath liked the same girl that liked us boath back when she chose me(why the hell?!) he kind of hated me....

Hannah: (fact Hannah is Hannah backwards!) shes the bigest tom boy ever that has nothing to do with being a girl at all... her diffrence is that she is tortured by her perents not working and haveing not my money she gets by tho

ok time for people at my school

ok going in who i know moast to who i know least

raychel (ok i dont care that i cant spell it) from the out side normal tomboy but reading her blog its like reaching into her thaughs and its pritty tormented (i would wright about me but.... who cares)

maddie: quiet and anti socal but to some people she talks... quite a bit sometimes she dosent speek but sometimes she does

tom: he has potentiol but he choses to sit back and watch life go by (thats not an insult cus thats what about 12 people i know do!)

nlick/matt: well nothing to wright here....

so thats it there is more but its like midnight right now and im gonna take a reast so thats all.

New updated descript of people

I know my last description of people is now out of date so heres the new vertion since i forget the fake names im gona make new ones ok going alphabeticly by real name err...





well 1st up is gamo (you can tell what words are mixed.) He's the most weirdst rejected person in the world in the ladder of people he is under ground with flap and kadly hes awfull to have around and if he reads this he would go tence and go into his squeeky high voise and say ohh yea?!



2nd is kate (name compleatly random) she's the girl thats quiet and non socal but you see the socal side of evry one and it turns out that moast quiet people have the moast to say she also has an obsesion with anime and drawing

3ed is Kyle (fact:this was my name I almoast had) hes a holden suporter that loves cars and stuff like that

4th is flick (I rememberd that one) hes the big... dumb weird and stuped idiot that peads little emos with hoases!

5th is jennet (random agen) shes the tomboy with the cerly out of controll hair with a weird love life

last is shoe (ok that time i was just looking at my foot.) he has potential to do things yet he sits back and does nothing... i cant blame him realy

and thats it just a refreasher or however you spell that

who?

it seems i change moods alot im depressed 52% of the time weird 39% and happy 9% of the time it seems i wright better blog things when im depressed but im not now.... ill get back to it 2morrow theres things i need to get of my chest but some of or 1 of or 2 of my friends read this blog and i cant so i made anouther to get things off so yea 2morrow

Why?

It seems no one seems to get me when your deprest you seem diffrent the quiet one in the backround wushing all the noise was gone today i got up went to school the bell goes we get talked to about god that no one in my home group cares about it any way ithen we leave for calass now is bad taht all my friends are in a higher grade from me so i stood there leaning on a pool wishing that the people around me would all just fall down a big whole and.... well any thuther and it may get a bit... anyway only some people "get" me look i cant be botherd wrighting right now and dont expect anouther poast any time soon ive got nothing to get off my back lately and im just... just

FEAR

fear its self is scary tell yourself that somethings gonna hurt and that thinking is so real that you start to feel it why bring this up? well i had my filling 2day and guess what it was boring not painfull boring it dident hurt at all just the fear of it hurting was worse but now i need the arthdontest (no im not respelling that) to get a plate in my jaw it saounds like it would hurt a LOT more but not as much as i think.

outher then that it has been a boring holidays

shuch a pain in the tooth!

well im not dead i know its been awhile you you may be thinking hummmm hes dead. if so WOW you jump to conclsions! any way soory now why that title you say well sigh ive got a dentice apointment (note spelling) and i im going to need fillings about 2 or 3 and a plate for my jaw cus its wired and maby *shutter* b b brace braces sigh any way

I just got rockband for my birthday if ya dont know what it is its kind of like gutair hero if you dont know what that is it useing a gutair with marked frets and struming the note as they scrool up to you on the screan if you dont know any of those words well no im not going to go that far any way getting of topic its basicly that but it has gutair bass drums and vocal

One of my friends party was 2 days ago it was pritty good tho i think lom and it liked drawing circles on a nitendo ds how sad hte jukebox had about 60 songs no heaps more oh well it also had thanks for the memorys whitch my class last year could not stop sinnging so i knew all the words and lom and slodi di as well then we went bowling and i came 3 out of all!! and i came 1st out of my team yay! outher then that its not worth typeing.

nothing elce intresting so stop reading

i said stop reading

stop it

I SAID STOP READING!!!!!!!!!!!!!......please