weired... i mean...... *sigh*

while I'm righting this Post I'm... i dunno happy? joyful... i don't know but its a good feeling i don't get happy allot although i may look like it sometimes I'm just.... destroyed inside i cant focus on school or anything every one in my class hates me.... but this is the 1st time in about 4 months that I'm happy for you know reel not a worry and I'm looking forward to the future Ive just got to keep this feeling for longer its like i believe like life is worth it.... what is it? i don't know but... if you don't under stand i don't either i just.... suddenly care about stuff! is so weird...

im going to start to plan for the future and doing things like that and im gonaa be different and ive started already ive used speel checked this poast for once! im gona try and be less shy.....try to and talk more and argh ill just end it here

so with that i click the mouse

FEAR

fear its self is scary tell yourself that somethings gonna hurt and that thinking is so real that you start to feel it why bring this up? well i had my filling 2day and guess what it was boring not painfull boring it dident hurt at all just the fear of it hurting was worse but now i need the arthdontest (no im not respelling that) to get a plate in my jaw it saounds like it would hurt a LOT more but not as much as i think.

outher then that it has been a boring holidays