in a nutshell (20th post)

this is my 20th post (just incase you forget the title :/ )

as the name sudjested this is in a nut shell what is? well ive been doing some thinking and i know how to put this poast

school.... nuf said right? well the people you see their are thay truly happy... or are they realy the quiet one or are they the bad or nice one... they may not be in my thinkens people have 3 ... err personaltys or in laymans terms diffrent "modes" theirs the im by myself personalaty whitch you let no one see for some strange reason then thers the one you show to people you know and then the one you show in a croud or around people you dont know

and out of acting for a bit its hard too think like that ok now back into it!

really i think the best way to know what outhers think of you is to see you from their prospective what do you look like to themcus whether you like it or not they all have personalatys

and back out........... one more then im done

in the end this poast was a waste of time ldmesafx;km
that was me bashing the key board from anger i dont know why but i hate myself alot lately... i hate me and evry one i dont care much,cxlkn xdlkn; g.kh xdfsbxfligybhs=eC(T G#)U

argh my blog has colour... its hidious! i hate colour

sience evry one elce has written at least one poast with color i will leach of the ideas of outhers......

well 1st up its hard to wright in white... sice i think i just made a mistake as well /:

ok if your reading this you eather hilighted it or you have good eyes well finaly ill wright something

well w8 this is dark blue... oh well so err....err cafish and i resurched and there is a thing called dog fish wow i know usefll info from the physcopathic weirdo.......... why do i make things harder for myself?

time to actuly wright ok this is my normal school day
1 show up at school

2 mical stepps on my foot

3 people arrive

4 bell goes

5 get to my locker haveing no idea what i have

6 get bored to death in home group

7 1st class and then 2nd

8 resess (notmal boring or retarded)

and so on but later in the day i normal get hit, stepped on, talked too (i hate talking to outher people) get bored at least 8 more times and finaly home

well that was boring the main reson im doing this poast is because my next one is a milestone.... 2 poasts.... ok its not that exiteing and i dont care ether but meh...














































you had some time on your hands and for that i say... get a life whoever you are

3 years back and now....

this is what i know about my friends back before a knew them

Raychel:(sorry for not knowing how to spell it) all i know is that she liked tom shes know nick for years and years and she meet Maddie a couple of years back

tom: (this is my reason for the title) HA today it happened what happened... Maddie and tom got together!!!! the only reason this was postponed 3 years is because toms a wuss.... sorry tom but you are a bit cowardly to keep your mouth shut for 3 years...... i still cant believe it although i think tom was about to die from nick suffocating him and the rest of us laughing it happened its strange really guess we go to w8 another 3 years for him to kiss her

Maddie: she's got a passion for anime that no one Ive ever known has she can draw like..... good drawing person shes shy unless with Raychel or tom or so on and quite quiet

nick: he know Raychel since kindergarten and has been accused of being gay that's all i know about him

Jordan: he went to Solly.... I think

weired... i mean...... *sigh*

while I'm righting this Post I'm... i dunno happy? joyful... i don't know but its a good feeling i don't get happy allot although i may look like it sometimes I'm just.... destroyed inside i cant focus on school or anything every one in my class hates me.... but this is the 1st time in about 4 months that I'm happy for you know reel not a worry and I'm looking forward to the future Ive just got to keep this feeling for longer its like i believe like life is worth it.... what is it? i don't know but... if you don't under stand i don't either i just.... suddenly care about stuff! is so weird...

im going to start to plan for the future and doing things like that and im gonaa be different and ive started already ive used speel checked this poast for once! im gona try and be less shy.....try to and talk more and argh ill just end it here

so with that i click the mouse

people are difrent then you may think....

you see some people that look like they have it all....they dont peole look hapy and are ...torcherd retards that want to be samrt nerds that cant be driffrent popular people that wish they where dead! ive made my point.

ok to start of people i know that are diffrent on the inside

since i dont care about 1/2 these people i wont bother fakeing names yea this is a un fake post

justen: the moast popular person in my old school hes life outside of school was a liveing hell!

Ryder: he was a quiet guy that was my best friend till grade6 hes a simple guy he has potentiol but he dosent realy show it...

Anthony: this guy boy where to get started..... 1st up hes the most antisocal person ever.... yet he has alot to say. he was my friend for a long time but when we boath liked the same girl that liked us boath back when she chose me(why the hell?!) he kind of hated me....

Hannah: (fact Hannah is Hannah backwards!) shes the bigest tom boy ever that has nothing to do with being a girl at all... her diffrence is that she is tortured by her perents not working and haveing not my money she gets by tho

ok time for people at my school

ok going in who i know moast to who i know least

raychel (ok i dont care that i cant spell it) from the out side normal tomboy but reading her blog its like reaching into her thaughs and its pritty tormented (i would wright about me but.... who cares)

maddie: quiet and anti socal but to some people she talks... quite a bit sometimes she dosent speek but sometimes she does

tom: he has potentiol but he choses to sit back and watch life go by (thats not an insult cus thats what about 12 people i know do!)

nlick/matt: well nothing to wright here....

so thats it there is more but its like midnight right now and im gonna take a reast so thats all.

New updated descript of people

I know my last description of people is now out of date so heres the new vertion since i forget the fake names im gona make new ones ok going alphabeticly by real name err...





well 1st up is gamo (you can tell what words are mixed.) He's the most weirdst rejected person in the world in the ladder of people he is under ground with flap and kadly hes awfull to have around and if he reads this he would go tence and go into his squeeky high voise and say ohh yea?!



2nd is kate (name compleatly random) she's the girl thats quiet and non socal but you see the socal side of evry one and it turns out that moast quiet people have the moast to say she also has an obsesion with anime and drawing

3ed is Kyle (fact:this was my name I almoast had) hes a holden suporter that loves cars and stuff like that

4th is flick (I rememberd that one) hes the big... dumb weird and stuped idiot that peads little emos with hoases!

5th is jennet (random agen) shes the tomboy with the cerly out of controll hair with a weird love life

last is shoe (ok that time i was just looking at my foot.) he has potential to do things yet he sits back and does nothing... i cant blame him realy

and thats it just a refreasher or however you spell that

who?

it seems i change moods alot im depressed 52% of the time weird 39% and happy 9% of the time it seems i wright better blog things when im depressed but im not now.... ill get back to it 2morrow theres things i need to get of my chest but some of or 1 of or 2 of my friends read this blog and i cant so i made anouther to get things off so yea 2morrow

Why?

It seems no one seems to get me when your deprest you seem diffrent the quiet one in the backround wushing all the noise was gone today i got up went to school the bell goes we get talked to about god that no one in my home group cares about it any way ithen we leave for calass now is bad taht all my friends are in a higher grade from me so i stood there leaning on a pool wishing that the people around me would all just fall down a big whole and.... well any thuther and it may get a bit... anyway only some people "get" me look i cant be botherd wrighting right now and dont expect anouther poast any time soon ive got nothing to get off my back lately and im just... just

FEAR

fear its self is scary tell yourself that somethings gonna hurt and that thinking is so real that you start to feel it why bring this up? well i had my filling 2day and guess what it was boring not painfull boring it dident hurt at all just the fear of it hurting was worse but now i need the arthdontest (no im not respelling that) to get a plate in my jaw it saounds like it would hurt a LOT more but not as much as i think.

outher then that it has been a boring holidays

shuch a pain in the tooth!

well im not dead i know its been awhile you you may be thinking hummmm hes dead. if so WOW you jump to conclsions! any way soory now why that title you say well sigh ive got a dentice apointment (note spelling) and i im going to need fillings about 2 or 3 and a plate for my jaw cus its wired and maby *shutter* b b brace braces sigh any way

I just got rockband for my birthday if ya dont know what it is its kind of like gutair hero if you dont know what that is it useing a gutair with marked frets and struming the note as they scrool up to you on the screan if you dont know any of those words well no im not going to go that far any way getting of topic its basicly that but it has gutair bass drums and vocal

One of my friends party was 2 days ago it was pritty good tho i think lom and it liked drawing circles on a nitendo ds how sad hte jukebox had about 60 songs no heaps more oh well it also had thanks for the memorys whitch my class last year could not stop sinnging so i knew all the words and lom and slodi di as well then we went bowling and i came 3 out of all!! and i came 1st out of my team yay! outher then that its not worth typeing.

nothing elce intresting so stop reading

i said stop reading

stop it

I SAID STOP READING!!!!!!!!!!!!!......please

minx

ok i made a mistake i just read any way minx was a term not year on the topic of mistakes 2 years ago i hade a girl friend err kilomie wtf is with the name any way this lasted 1 year but i went to a diffrent school and it all kind of ended

KILLER SPAGETTIE (or how ever you spell it)

a new look on life

i woke up today and i kind of feelt diffrent life looked deffrent like its worth liveing (yea i siad that!) and i went to school and mr funsail was in a good mood for once! then in sose we watched catagory 6 a natural desaster movie then math we watched the rest cus we have da same teacher then in lote we watched the opening of the olyimpics then in english it was shit as useuwal then scine i think i did well on a test it was all good like my dream i had at night i went to school the girl i like liked me well that dident happen today :( any way then all day was kind of like the best day ever.... this leeds me to my next topic

we never dreem like its real life this is because we always want better we all want this "perfect wold" ethn tho you need to lerm lifes a bitch you never seem to be the person you want to be you always want better like humm 3 of my friends would kill to be someone elce but they dont realise what they are well im bored cya!

why bother in life it huts you kiks you and spits on you i mean the only good thing can hurt you more.....

if ya dont know what it is ya pritty light in the head! love its confuseing and drenced and crutal and so on but its good if the person likes you back ive had a few cruches and 2 girl frends 1 was a girl that liked me but i hated her and one hummm fake name...... jade liked me back we went out for a year but it died but for some reson a year from then i still kind of think of her but shes moved on

well at school right now ive had 2 crushes one was on err minx lol what a wired name any way this lasted a year when the it told her that i liked her i relysed i dont like her any more.

now its worse its a girl that some of my freinds like as well err chistean wow im gona forget that one..... any way i like her but i think she likes ummmm soup (thats my name for someone p.s im hungry) but she kind of trys to make a converstion with me sometimes even over the smallest thing like the thing on the floor...... and she tends to be a little edgey arounfd me aswell well thatas what i think but soup is pushing to shit i forgot da name ahh chisten that annoys me so much when he gets her full attention so i tend to but in and she is just.... i dont know ill talk about it later

on a diffrent note there is a girl ive just realised i have a bit of a spark for i aint gona even make up a name for her cus she pritty much thinks of me as "that guy" but she thinks no one likes her but she is stuped not to relise that no one is gona say it unless then KNOW they like em back so ill keep ya up to date with all dat shit

PEACE!

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as you can tell from the time and title im very sleepy but dont wana go ta bed so im trying to think of something to wright abouteafweg

lights camra...

ive given my blog a quick toch of class with a few gadjets and with my story comeing its gona be good

a good idea

some of my readers i.e me and no one else so in another way of saying why do i bother posting one will read this! well its a thing to get things off my back and have a small hope of someone likeng my page (Yea right.....) i have nothing to talk about ill just type as i go on well hobbies pets story writing w8 story! my story i could Post that well no one will read it but ohh well! ill get to it...... tomorrow.....

pouintless

Well my 1st normal named heading this is about my pointless day at school..... I got up this morning got ready for school then road for 30mins to school in about 9 degrease which had me swearing all the way there (stupid bus people) when i got there the bell went as soon as i got close to school so after i got my stuff out of my tiny locker and got to home group late then at lesson 1 we had music we are learning guitar i already know every thing there teaching so i get a good mark in vpa (visual preforming arts) last term i got a d because we did art i swear im the worst drawer of all time you may think a wolf balenceing a apple that has a bullet worm eating its core is bad at drawing but im worse (But very random...) at recces me,tom,it,ratchal and maddie whent to our spot OHH our spots well 1st we had "the corner" it's the little corner where 2 conrainers meet one is of corse shoter then the outher but seeing how we used a small space near the 2 containers as a bin... we were forced to move to "the wall" the wall is the side wall of the jouinor/libary area ohh and i need to mentchen its a resption-year12 school but we where told that no one could see us there so we went to "the container" it was the wall of the container that faces the oval we slowly moved back to the good old corner tho wow i went off topic there..... so me and the it where ditching stones at eachouther then i started to dig a stone that was buryed in a lot of dirt mmmmm dirt any way it looked very small but was in fact very big! then we dug up some more it started on a really cmall one but when he pulled it out it was MASSIVE!! so we started to destoy the net ball cort but chipping off the small rokes that make out the dravval of it with a stone well ive got home work to do so.... ill keep wrighting... at lunch we had a stuped netball chapion ship with the two school sports day teems it was quite boring we won tho taht was the only good part so an end to a nother pouintless day at school lerning stuff you will never use.

1st bloggy thing ps if you are reading this u have problems!

hello I'm a teen as u may know and as all teens i go to high school and it is like this you get up get ready for school go to school get bored out of your mind go home to do more school and go to bed...... not much of a life eh? well threes weekends where u hang out with Friends or do more work or sit there and do nothing..... like me nothing well sometimes friends what about work? no i cant be bothered i have a.... thing... due 2morrow and i could be doing it now..... but i don't care i hate life....

I play guitar i have for about 7 months and I'm ok at it my teacher wont let me play actual songs yet and that's bloody annoying!

friends well threes well humm whats a fake name......... lkt and slammy errr chelc .... flick and dordan just call them that descriptions!? you expect me to sit here and wright a description of them ALL!! ok lkt: the wired guy hes ok but he is well wired slamy: quiet silent little person that has nothing better to do in life then watch death note... Rachael: normal girl all i have to say fick: is a big wired idiot lol rely hes just a person dordan aka little miss aka Julia aka it: ok whats with the nik names? well its a it if you saw him you would have trouble seeing if it was a boy or a girl why? long blond hair, high voice, likes girls music it is a "boy" but we cant be shore..... that's it threes other people in my class that ill put in newerer posts right now ill just lay in bead and wish i was dead well except of the fact of the person i like even tho you are compete and utter strangers I'm not gonna say well that's all.